Look, i'm getting to feel that i'm pathetic.
pathetic as it is.
i thought school break will be so much fun to have myself a leisure time,
since i'm not taking fancy of outing a lot, i guess being home is perfect.
now i'm all-8 days of being home, and i feel pathetic.
because i have nothing to do, i don't socialize, i don't communicate
the first one doesn't bother me alot, but two latter is depressing,
i'm not a people-person i'm sure, but socializing is important.
and seeing the other life is going, i am going: "What have i done???"
besides, from whatever happened earlier in that 8 days i home *rubbing forehead*, not much a help either, thanks to a-nice-sytle-of-waking-up-people-by-a-simple-hard-kick-on-the-door thing. hey, i'm human, not just standing silly 5 feet figurines with no heart. treat me gentle. sadly, i'm also a woman. being sensitive and crybaby is sucks. it's worse when you DID have heart-ache and cry, they just accuse you to be weak and illogical. thanks. what kind of world i'm living in anyway?
and why should be bothered by apologizing? if he/she will DO the same harshness anytime soon?
they'll repeated again, apologizing again... and maybe they do it not in sincerity, just formality. beacuse the repititon showed that they honestly don't care about what i'm feeling anyway.
Recalling a message from dear friend while ago: "get a life! you once told me that, now i have mine, time to get yours."
fine. i'll do it. getting a life.
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